Press On...

One year ago I received my Bachelor of Science degree in Music. It was by far one of the happiest days of my life. A sense of relief came over me that beautiful May afternoon as they called my name and I walked across the stage. I was ready to take the world by storm! Ready to conquer all, and really succeed! Little did I know. God had a plan.
I began to enjoy my time off for the summer. I got settled into our new home and my husbands new job. I loved being a housewife. It was a nice break. Weeks went on. Resumes were created, edited, trashed, and created again. Job applications were turned in day after day. Emails and calls were returned to me with disappointment. Weeks went on. I had days of discouragement. Many days I felt like a failure. Why couldn't I find a job? Anything would do for me; it didn't matter what it was anymore. I had tried and done everything that I knew I could do to solve this problem.
Then it hit me. Well, God hit me. I began to not focus so much on "holding on" to this career thing, but "letting go". Completely letting go! It was reviving. Comforting. Encouraging. Then, after more months went on, I got discouraged again. But God lifted me up. We began to learn many things in our marriage together. We grew even closer to God individually and together. We began going to a new church that we now call our home. We learned to not focus on worldly "things" and money. We learned not to be judgmental. We learned to daily seek more of Him and less of us. We had finally somewhat figured it out. This life and ALL that is in it is isn't and never was OURS--it's God's. It's His to take ahold of and it's our job to fulfill and listen to His plan for our lives. Our home is His, our money is His, our possessions are His, our problems are His, and we are His. From that day on, we sought daily to be a vessel for God to shine through, we were in a constant state of prayer, we loved people--all people, and we learned that this life is not for us, it is simply for God. That was many, many months ago now, and ever since that moment, we have seen God practically throw Himself upon our lives and it is better than any "thing" on this earth.
So months continued to go on being unemployed. I felt great about what God had planned for me. I knew that His plan was perfect, no matter what my timing had in mind. I became very excited one day as I suddenly began to see His hand at work.
I had received several phone calls about a certain position over the course of a few months. I had begun to suddenly fall upon people involved with this position and meet with them. One day, I even went to meet one important person, and walked right in to interview. I wasn't planning on interviewing that day, it just seemed to happen. Isn't God so cool! I love when He shows us His greatness and love. After my first interview, I was asked for a second. The interview was perfect, my words flowed as if God were giving them to say--and I know that He did. I apparently was appealing to these people, because I was asked for a third and final interview. With this interview, I studied hard, read books, and asked sources a ton of questions to prepare. It was interesting all the things that I learned before this interview. Going into this final interview, I was ready for God to shine through me. I was ready for Him to take hold. When I walked into the room, I sat down, answered a few simple "non interview" questions and was out of there in less than 10 minutes. It was as if God was simply saying, "Lindsey, I've taken care of this. Don't worry about a thing." OK, God. So here I was a one year college graduate, walking out of the Robertson County Board of Education with great peace in Him.
One hour later I received a phone call. It was the best phone call I've ever received. I'll never forget it. John and I were in the parking lot of a gas station looking at a boat. (Go figure) It was the Assistant Principal of Springfield Middle School telling me they wanted me aboard their team as the Music and Choir Director.
*PAUSE*
WOW! I scream. In her ear. But, I think she was just as excited as I was. This was it! I had received my special gift from God!

After one whole year of searching and not finding anything, I am so thankful that I am finally here in my life. I have found what God wants me to do. He has revealed this to me in His timing and not my own. And it is perfect.

Yesterday I was digging through some old things and found this. It was given to me when I graduated from high school by a very special and now very significant person in my life. It stated this:

"I wrote My purpose into you...
It is My song you have to sing...
I gave it to you with love.
In your fear,
You think you have your own song...
that the idea to sing is your own
and that the music depends on you.
You are My precious child,
And before you were even born,
I had you in mind.
I am the One who wove the
melody and lyrics
into the fabric of your life.
So, My child,
sing My song.
Let the music flow through you with
freedom...
as My love and power
flow always through to you.
And don't forget...
The song in you in My idea."

Thank you God for showing Your Great love towards me. I am completely humbled that you would love me so much. I am honored to see your Greatness in my life over this past year. It has been long, and it has been very hard, but You have shown through the entire time. You are so big God. Thank you for showing me this. I am so unbelievably thankful to be here in my life doing what I was created to do. God, shine through me daily. I am Your vessel simply living for You and spreading your Word. Let the music begin! The song in me is and always will be Your idea. Thank you God for my prize! -Amen.